Oi Oi Oi

I did something I wasn't proud of today, but it could make Gordon Gekko proud. Anyway it is something that i'll take as a wake up call to myself. A constant reminder that i can in any given time can go down the path where men i hated crawled down with sewer rats by their side.

This was the scenario earlier:

I bought two pirated DVD's at Monumento earlier, at 50 pesos each it equals to a hundred bucks. I gave the lady who was wearing a veil over her head while her husband who looks like Nur Misuari in his prime handed me the plastic bag containing the two DVD's.

The woman then gave me a change of 400.00, obviouslt thinking that i gave her a 500.00 peso bill instead of a 200.00 peso bill. I was surprised and i ended up doubting if ever i had given her a 500 peso bill instead of a 200 peso bill.

But i cannot fool my mind, I know deep in my mind and even my sub-conscious self is telling me that it was really a 200.00 peso bill and that the lady made a mistake of thinking that it was a 500.00 peso bill.

Here's where it gets worst. INSTEAD of correcting the lady by saying "Miss my money is only 200.00 you gave me an excess change of 300.00", i nonchalantly walked away from the stall and flagged down a Meycauyan bound jeepney.

Along the way i realized what an asshole part of my character have appeared before my eyes. For a measly 300.00 bucks i have successfully inducted myself into the league of those corrupt politicians that i despise.

Those corrupt politicians that i hate, if ever they were reading this must be probably saying "Welcome to the club Marky, you're now a small time crook, in ten-fifteen years you'll be like one of us".

And the thought just sent shrivers down my spine, just knowing that i can be capable of running away with money or other things that does not belong to me.

I texted a few friends narrating what i did and all of them replied back saying "they will return the excess change"

Dave for instance replied to me with "I wont take things that does not belong to me"

Fran's answer was "Isosoli ko, i believe in karma"

Lot's reply was "isosoli syempre"

Jana said "isosoli"

Pam's response was "Isosoli di kaya ng konsensya ko"

Charles Manson straight from his cell in San Quentin texted me with "Good job Marky, that's a great start into the life of crime"


There! I did something I'm not proud of, it was a character test that i failed and will definitely take into consideration next time i deal with something that involves monetary temptation, cheating and other possible wrongdoings that will negate one's soul into a loss of respect and betrayal of one's pledge of straight edge morality.

I for one have wandered out of my parent's good upbringing and teachings of "do not take what was not yours".

I failed in that category today....and for what? for a measly 300.00 bucks, I have proven myself to be capable of such act. I wonder how can i correct this mistake.

I was thinking of going back there tomorrow and to try to explain that i got confused myself and was late to realize that i only gave a 200.00 peso bill instead of a 500.00 peso bill. I just hope they wont ask me questions like "why did it took you 24 hours?" and hope they wont beat me up hehe.


"Greed is good" according to Gordon Gekko...



but to me its a poison that needs to be rid of, i have my hands full in trying to desintegrate its root in my system and hopefully out of my character. Definitely what happened today have proven me that i, myself is a greedy motherfucker as well....no different than those corrupt politicians that i despise.

Righteous people out there, you can all have a grand time castigating me, it's alright. I deserve a kick in my gut this time.